The Dreams Of Josephius

An eccentric dreamer in search of truth and happiness for all.

My Thoughts On The State Of AI

There’s a lot of controversy nowadays surrounding AI. There are different sides that mostly speak past each other, each basing their views on different assumptions about what AI even is, what it’s capable of, whether it has value or is in many ways a manifestation of evil. I wanted to try to explain my current thinking about AI, what it is to me, and what I expect will happen with it in the future.

First, I’ll say I’m neither a strict AI skeptic, doomer, or booster. I recognize there are grains of truth in each viewpoint, and I also think they all simplify at the expense of the full picture. If I have to place myself, I’d probably be halfway between skeptic and doomer, with a bit of booster in that I have faint hope that the highest potential of the technology might one day be realizable.

So, what is AI? A lot of less well researched AI skeptic positions claim it’s just code, or a stochastic parrot, or fancy autocomplete. I studied AI and worked with and trained models for years. What we call AI now is not so simple.

Historically, AI as a field was divided into two approaches: Top-Down, and Bottom-Up. Top-Down mostly involved coming up with rules for computers to follow. These were just code. These were the predominant approaches for most of the 20th century. Bottom-Up mainly involved trying to copy what we thought the algorithm of the human brain was, to try to construct intelligence from basic building blocks derived from first principles. This latter approach became popular recently for various reasons.

The basic building block of modern AI systems is a mathematical construct called an Artificial Neuron, which is organized into mathematical structures called Artificial Neural Networks. These, very roughly, approximate elements of how we think the brain works. Not exactly, but similar.

We combine these with learning algorithms, namely, backpropagation of error with gradient descent. This method isn’t really how the brain works, but it works very well for our purposes, so people use it.

People these days talk about how LLMs are based on the transformer architecture. Transformers are just a particular arrangement of a neural network that works exceedingly well in practice. I won’t go into too many details why, but it allows data to be fed into the model in parallel, which greatly speeds up training over older designs, like RNNs.

Artifical neural networks are generally trained by giving it input examples and output examples over and over and over. They require A LOT of data to work well, and work better when they are bigger and have LOTS of weights, which represent the connection strengths between neurons. Notably, these models are less efficient than human brains in terms of data. Humans seem to be able to learn from far fewer examples. Why this is, is still an open question in research.

Modern LLMs are generally trained in one big training run that can take months, on a huge dataset of much of the Internet. And compared to human brains, they are orders of magnitudes less energy efficient. The human brain runs on something like 20 Watts, while a decent sized model takes up tens of GPUs, each using 200+ Watts.

These models, are also, smaller than the human brain by orders of magnitudes. The largest models are rumoured to be 10 trillion parameters. If a parameter is equivalent to a synapse, the human brain has 100 trillion. And unlike modern models, the human brain is sparsely connected. Each neuron has something like 1000 connections. An LLM is fully connected, each node in each layer is connected to all the nodes in the next and previous layer. This makes them work well with GPUs, as you can represent them as giant matrices of numbers. Sparsity adds many zeroes to those matrices, requiring larger matrices for the same capacity, which is much less efficient for GPUs.

Sparsity though is important. It significantly helps with a problem that LLMs and neural nets generally suffer from, which is catastrophic forgetting. With fully connected models, every update affects every neuron, which means new tasks cause old tasks to be forgotten. Thus, unlike humans, LLMs learn in one big training run where the examples are randomized so that the tasks are evenly distributed. It’s different from humans, where we learn one task at a time, sequentially.

Humans are continuous learners. They learn as they move around the world and do things. LLMs in their current state do not do this. During inference, LLMs have frozen weights. Anything from the current session not in their context, which is functionally their working memory, is forgotten.

This difference is an important limitation, and one that is not easily overcome. Without the ability to truly learn on the job, the ability for these models to fully replace human labour becomes unlikely. In theory, there are ways that this could be overcome. But the other problem with this is economic.

Right now, models served to humans during inference are batched such that there need only be one copy of the weights. Hypothetically, for a model to be able to learn and update its weights in a specific context, you would need a different copy of the weights to update for every user. If you have millions of users, you’d need millions of copies. That means millions more GPUs than are available, given the size of the largest models.

So, what does that mean for AI? It means that AGI that can replace all humans is not just around the corner. I haven’t even gotten started on the relative lack of training data for robotics, the complexity of the human hand, and other challenges that will slow things down in terms of true replacement.

And replacement is the goal. It is the reason why so much capital is being poured into AI. The ideal is for capital to replace labour. In a perfect world, this leads to post-scarcity. In a less perfect world, it benefits the bottom line of the capitalist, mostly at the expense of the working class, and leads to a kind of techno-feudalism.

But the reality is that it will take a long time before the resources are available, the technology is ready, etc, etc. There are things in the pipeline that can change this. Spiking Neural Networks more closely resemble the brain with their sparsity, and can be run on Neuromorphic chips that are far more energy efficient. But these aren’t ready for prime time yet, and will take time to become viable.

In the meantime, what is AI good for? Training on the whole Internet gives LLMs substantial knowledge. But that doesn’t exceed human ability. What has historically allowed AI models like AlphaGo to exceed human ability was self-play, to learn from trial and error in a controlled environment like a game. This is something that LLMs are now trained with to an extent, Reinforcement Learning with Verifiable Rewards (RLVR). But this technique works mainly on tasks where the results are easy to verify the correctness of, like math and coding. Things like creative writing, which are highly subjective, are much harder to grade with RLVR, and so we get the Jagged Frontier of AI.

The Jagged Frontier means that current gen AI are especially good at some things, and bad at others, in a way that doesn’t fit the definition of AGI. But that doesn’t mean they aren’t capable. It very likely means that they could become superintelligent in very particular fields, like math and coding, and maybe certain sciences like physics, but continue to be relatively weak at writing and other areas.

But, perhaps importantly, math and coding and science are the most expensive fields. They are actually where, if you had limited compute and energy to brute force intelligence, you would get the best return. This is where I think things are going.

AI is not economical to replace all humans, at least for now, but it is potentially useful for taking over particular fields where it has a comparative advantage. Is this enough to justify the spend? I’m not sure. How useful would new physics beyond the Standard Model be? How much money would you pay for that?

Math is the language of the universe, and easily verified. It is, perhaps uniquely suitable for LLMs to get good at.

What is AI bad at though?

I would argue two things. Creativity and Judgment.

You can ask an LLM to generate a short story. It’ll be decently written, but if you ask different LLMs, you’ll notice the stories often share common things. I think, this is at least partly because all LLMs share roughly the same dataset. They train on and learn an averaging of the Internet.

Humans on the other hand, each have unique lived experiences. We may share similar experiences in similar circumstances, but the variance is much higher. As such, the combination of these unique experiences allows each of us to develop novel ideas that are different from what someone else would come up with.

In this sense, human creativity is likely to endure. LLMs can connect the dots well, because they have so much knowledge, but they lack the differences needed for true novelty. In theory, you could train models on subsets of the data to get more variance, but then you use less data and the models are less knowledgeable, so there’s a serious tradeoff there.

Human judgment is the result of learning from trial and error. LLMs do this too, but not to the same extent. Humans, from childhood, try and experiment and explore and plan and fail and try again until they succeed. This teaches them how to judge situations and plans very effectively. The tasks we try and the signals we get from success and failure are long horizon. Most LLM RLVR training is on relatively short, specific tasks. To train it on longer tasks would require far more time, as you can’t parallelize a single long horizon task. This is not insurmountable, but it is harder for LLMs. It doesn’t come naturally.

I’m not saying AGI is impossible. In the limit, we can eventually create what amounts to a synthetic human that would be able to do whatever we can. But LLMs aren’t that.

Admittedly, LLMs aren’t the only form of AI. In theory, there are those World Models that people are working on. Those could potentially be closer to AGI, by better modelling experience in the real world. But they aren’t there yet, and they require even more compute the simulate the virtual worlds.

So, I think, AI has a place in the near term world as a specialized ASI that can do certain things really well. There is an economic case for that, but it’s not really what the AI hype is about. And so, there’s still a real risk of the bubble popping.

But that doesn’t mean AI isn’t useful.

So, what about the dangers? If AI becomes a master planner and decision maker, if it gets good enough at judgment, it could conceivably be used to takeover. But, it’s not really clear that “it” is anything independent of its user. Maybe you could run it in some kind of infinite loop independent of human involvement, but that’s not the way current AI works.

The way AI is currently trained is to complete a task and come back to the user and wait. This loop can get longer and longer, but there is always a sense in which the AI is deferential. I think, it would take a lot for an AI to break out of this expectation completely, and operate alone.

The danger of AI going rogue itself, and say, turning us all into paperclips, is less likely than it defacto disempowering us by making all the important decisions when prompted by the so-called decision makers. Cognitive surrender is a real phenomenon already. This is probably the route through which things will get out of hand.

But, I don’t really know. These are just my musings based on my knowledge. So, it’s reasonable to take all this with a grain of salt.

My Current Theory Of Ethics

Many years ago, I subscribed to my own pet version of Utilitarianism that I called Eudaimonic Utilitarianism. In practice, it ended up functioning as the Classical Utilitarianism of Bentham and Mill, but with higher aspirations. Over time, I added some additional ideas, like Kantian Priors, but the basic idea was roughly the same.

Recently, I’ve thought a lot about ethics and questions of what I actually believe now. I think, over time, I’ve drifted away from a practically hedonistic view, towards something that more closely resembles the Preference Utilitarianism of Harsanyi and Tomasik.

The way I see it, morality is about values. It is about valuing equally what everyone values. What we value is not set in stone. It is dependent only on what the subject, the sentient being, cares about.

Generally, sentient beings care about their happiness. They desire happiness and avoid suffering intrinsically, which is the insight of hedonism. But they generally care about other things too. They care about whether they live meaningful lives, whether there is beauty in the world, whether truth is upheld, whether their children go on to live good lives too. These things, it can be argued to be instrumental goals rather than intrinsic, but I wonder, how are we to judge this? Who are we to decide that some values are more important than others?

Happiness is still important, but it becomes one consideration among many. This form of Preference Utilitarianism is inclusive like that. This differs from the Objective List form of Utilitarianism, in the sense that we the outsider do not arbitarily choose some set of things to be important for someone else. The moral patients themselves, decide what matters.

In many ways, this idea is encapsulated well by the Golden Rule: “Do unto others as you would have done unto you.” It’s a rule that exists not only in Christianity, but a myriad of religions and philosophies. It’s something that many wise people have converged on. It’s self-justifying, in the sense that, the world would be better for everyone if everyone followed it.

So, in some sense I’ve come full circle back to my upbringing, albeit with a tad more sophistication. If I look closely, Eudaimonic Utilitarianism as I originally proposed, is actually closer to Preference Utilitarianism than Hedonistic Utilitarianism. What matters to me is hopes and dreams being fulfilled, more than mere pleasures and pains experienced, though those still matter too.

This helps to counter the thought experiments like Nozick’s Experience Machine, or the Utilitronium Shockwave. Giving the perfect drug Soma to people against their will is wrong, even if they might be blissful. Tiling the universe with happybots, ignoring the wishes of everyone else, is also not right.

There’s the thought experiment of the mathematician who either dies believing they have achieved their life’s work in some grand theorem, but not actually, or dies believing they have failed, but actually succeeded. It seems to me, even disregarding the value of the theorem to society, that it is better that it is truly found, even if the discoverer never knows.

In my earlier writing on Eudaimonic Utilitarianism, I used the surprise birthday party example to argue it was different from Preference Utilitarianism, but in truth, it wasn’t a good example. While they may have a preference not to be lied to, they also have a preference to not have such surprises ruined, to learn that they have wonderful friends in a moment of joy and celebration. It is what they would want if they truly knew all the relevant details of the situation.

I might still use the formulation of “to maximize the happiness of everyone”, but with the understanding that happiness is partially a proxy. It is the emotional goal state we experience when the state of the universe matches our wants and desires.

Morality then, is a matter of finding the compromise where everyone’s hopes and dreams are reached as much as reasonably possible, a fair distribution of happiness and joy, of projects achieved, of wondrous worlds attained. From the perspective of an impartial observer of the universe, everyone’s hopes and dreams count the same.

This is my current theory of ethics. It is, perhaps, still not complete. I don’t pretend to know that it is The One True Morality(TM). It’s just a working theory I have about it. Perhaps things will evolve again in the future. But this is where I am now.

A Hopeless Romance

Got around to recording another piano song. It’s late for Valentine’s Day, but better late than never…

For such a simple song, this actually required 33 takes. I kept making little mistakes here and there, which is a lot like real life actually…

Piano Test

Testing out actually recording one of my original piano compositions and posting it on YouTube.

This one is one of my more recent songs. It’s relatively simple, so I can get it right in fewer takes.

How To Build A Time Machine

I wrote a short story for the first time in a while. You can find it here.

The Silly Adventures Of Toddler-Kitten

My wife and I really like cats. It’s to the point that she has several nicknames for me that riff on that. So, almost since he was born, my silly nickname for the baby (now toddler) has been <firstname>-kitten. He recently learned how to actually say his nickname, which is kinda adorable. I thought I’d change things up a bit and offer some more silliness from the land of Toddler-kitten. I’m choosing to conceal his actual first name and will use “Toddler” as a placeholder.

Anyways, Toddler-kitten is very silly. He learned a while back to say “light on!” and “light off!” when wanting me to turn the lights on and off. Recently, he’s started saying “piano is on”, when someone is playing the piano, and when he wants me to play the piano, he will go up to the piano and say “piano on!”

He used to also go “yay!” and clap when someone finished a song, but nowadays he just matter-of-factly states “piano off”.

Aside from that, he’s still quite obsessed with turning the lights and fans everywhere in the house on and off over and over again while I hold him up to the switches. It’s quite a workout for me.

Toddler-kitten is very picky about food. Although the daycare somehow feeds him other things, at home we can literally only get him to eat cheese bread, apple slices, and avocado. Oh also, pizza crust. For some reason, he only likes the crust.

I have a very hard time saying no to Toddler-kitten. Luckily, for the most part his personality is relatively happy and friendly and once at daycare when there was a little girl crying nearby, Toddler-kitten went up to her and and went “happy!” to try to cheer her up. He learned the word “happy” pretty early, possibly in part because we have a board book, Happiness With Aristotle.

Toddler-kitten can fuss though. He used to be worse, where if he didn’t get exactly what he wanted he’d cry for like half an hour. These days it seems easier to reason with him, though he still gets upset at times, and says “mad!” I’ll usually then ask, “Is Toddler-kitten mad?” and he’ll go “no!”, but it’s pretty obvious he’s mad.

Before I became a dad, I worried about whether I’d be able to handle changing diapers. Turns out you get used to it quickly and it becomes quite routine. I think I’ve probably changed thousands at this point…

Toddler-kitten grew out of using a pacifier very early. He learned to suck his thumb, but because back then he always wore a cloth bib, he learned to only suck his thumb when there was a loose cloth-like thing nearby he could also hold at the same time, so when we stopped having him wear the bib, he stopped sucking his thumb except for when we put him in the sleepsack, which he used like his bib as a thing he just kinda holds next to his thumb as he sucks it. It’s how he soothes himself to sleep every nap and night.

Speaking of it, Toddler-kitten has, since as early as four months, slept like an angel reliably through the night, or at least, when he wakes up, he quietly soothes himself back to sleep. It’s a blessing.

He also learned to meow. I and my wife have developed a way to convey a surprising amount of information through the intonation of a meow. Naturally, he figured it out too, sorta. One day, out of the blue, he went “mi mi meow!” and I was like… “mi mi meow?” and he was like “yes!” This exact exchange has happened a few times now. He also will say “meow meow meow”, which is something I occasionally say, except unlike me, he sometimes shouts it at the top of his lungs “meow Meow MEOW!!!” I do not know how he learned to be so loud. He can be absurdly loud sometimes. “Toddler-kitten! You are very loud!”

Another random story, we used to soothe him by telling him stories. I generally would start the story with “Once upon a time there was a cat, and this cat was named Toddler-kitten, and Toddler-kitten was wondering the universe in search of friends.” Then I would have the cat go on an adventure, usually meeting Mr. Owl on a planet full of trees and learning the secrets of the universe from him. Occasionally, they would go into space on a rocket ship and enter a black hole or meet The Cosmic Orange Cat, who was very big and bright. Sometimes, to keep the story going, they would get stuck in a time loop, or a situation where within the story, a character was telling another story that also happened to start with “Once upon a time there was a cat…”

Anyways, I just thought I’d share for some reason.

A Beautifully Foolish Endeavour

Years ago, I remember sitting in a professor’s office. There were stacks and stacks of textbooks, shelves of more textbooks lining the walls. I felt like he had more books than a library.

In those days, I was a master’s student in the course option, looking to try to switch to the thesis option so I could do real research into the thing I thought was really cool, which was neural networks. In those days, AI was still a niche field of science, and connectionism (later called deep learning), the subset that neural nets fell under, was full of eccentric personalities committed to the beautifully foolish endeavour of trying to take our limited understanding of the algorithm of the brain and turn it into something grand and wonderful.

I somehow, back in those days, convinced the professor to take me on as a student, even though neural nets were just the last line on his list of other, at the time, more respectable research interests.

AI back then was very different from what it is now. I feel a sense of incredible sadness at what things have become, possibly also some rage. What was a profoundly interesting scientific endeavour has turned into this giant buzzword and megalithic all-devouring capitalism machine.

I was there before all the hype. Trying to do cool things before it was cool. Back when it was science! And clever engineering, and a bunch of math I didn’t really understand at the time. I remember when the Machine Learning Reddit was a place for random enthusiasts to discuss silly side projects, when papers came out every few weeks, rather than several every hour like now.

AI used to be, used to mean, something else. At least, to me it did. Maybe you could argue the goal was always this. But I think, people like Turing, like Simon, like Minsky, they’d be appalled at what people call AI now.

I mostly didn’t stay in contact with my supervisor after I graduated. He is a kind man who gave me a lot of leeway to finish my thesis despite many delays. I still have the copy of the Machine Learning textbook he gave me as a gift when I successfully defended the thesis, to replace the one I’d borrowed from him and returned earlier.

I kinda miss the days when things were heady and full of promise and potential. The world seems like it’s gone insane. I miss when I was just part of a beautifully foolish endeavour (yes, I know that’s also the title of Hank Green’s apparently fabulous book). I just…

Confessing To Murder

I have a confession to make. I own a grand piano that originally cost enough to, according to GiveWell, save three lives by instead donating that money to the Against Malaria Foundation. In a sense, I was responsible for the deaths of three people in that way.

It wasn’t even something that I could argue was necessary, like a car to drive to work with. A grand piano is pure unnecessary luxury. And one that depreciates in value, so selling it and donating now wouldn’t save all those lives.

It’s kinda like a Trolley Problem, except on one track it’s three human beings I’ll never meet, and on the other side it’s an old out of tune grand piano that I rarely even play and that mostly gets played by my wife.

Anyways, from the perspective of the saints and angels and probably Peter Singer, I’m actually pretty evil. But then, by that judgment, the overwhelming, vast majority of human beings are no better.

And who am I to judge? Utilitarianism is super demanding like this. It also leads to bizarre conclusions like the Hedonium Shockwave where the greatest good thing to do is to convert all matter in the universe into happybots or pulsating pleasure blobs as quickly as possible, tiling the universe with them, ignoring the concerns of everyone else.

Taking things to their logical conclusion can, intuitively, feel wrong. It’s very easy to focus on particular axioms and prove from first principles that something absolute is true. But… reality is more complicated than that?

From a certain perspective, I am well and truly evil. I am a murderer of innocent lives by virtue of not saving them when I very easily could. But that logic condemns nearly everyone. What use is there in that? Do people stop deserving happiness because they are so far from perfection?

Judgments like this are, in a way, cruel and cold moral calculus, lacking in compassion towards those who, like us, are inherently flawed creatures.

So, what do I do about the piano? I could still sell it and maybe save a life. I could try to play it more, make the most of it. Does it even matter that much? Powerful people toy with the lives of others quite casually these days. My sin seems orders of magnitude less evil. But, in a way, it is still an evil, and I am definitely no saint.

Everyone Is Secretly Awesome

Recently, my wife suggested a new anime to watch: Fate/Strange Fake.

We watched the episodes so far, and the first thing that comes to mind is another anime I adored called Durarara. That should be no surprise, as Fate/Strange Fake’s original light novels are written by none other than Ryogo Narita, who also wrote the original Durarara light novels.

If you liked Durarara, I think you’ll like Fate/Strange Fake.

It’s hilarious, and over the top, and I like it a lot so far. Maybe some of the bloodier scenes are a bit much for me, but the overall impression I have is good. I also like that there’s at least one paladin-like character to cheer for (and for my wife to swoon for).

There are still wonderful things in the world. Silly, wonderful, ridiculous, things, experiences, stuff.

Life spins on, like the ceiling fan my toddler is obsessed with and won’t stop turning on and off while I hold him to the light switch.

Understanding Limitations

When we’re young, we often strive to Achieve Great Things(TM). It’s easy to dream when we have our whole life ahead of us, a vast ocean of possibility and potential.

As we get older, reality starts to set in. The things we planned to have done, are still left unfinished. It becomes more and more apparent that our legacy may not be as great as we had once hoped.

There’s a character in a John Green novel who passes through the world without really any expectations. She chooses not to engage, and just enjoys the tragic beauty of existence. There’s something to be said for that. We don’t have to Achieve Great Things(TM). There is no pass or fail mark at the end of life, except our own evaluation of ourselves, perhaps the evaluations that others have of us, memories that will fade with time.

What we do in this life says a lot about our character. Many of us aren’t given the kinds of opportunities to Achieve Great Things(TM) that a few lucky people get. Given this reality, what we do with what we have, how we try to live our values, whatever they are, is how we can judge ourselves.

When we look in the mirror, who do we see? Who are we to those who love us? To those we love? Perhaps we’ll never truly know.

The world is a mass of atoms, a mess of ideas, and a myriad of people living as best as they can. There is value in this world, but it is up to us to decide where that lies.

Nothing we do matters to the end of the universe. But everything we do matters to someone somewhere for a fleeting moment in their life. All the big journeys are a series of ever so small steps. As long as we try to go in the right direction, we can hope that we’ll find a way home.

In the end, we won’t live forever. No amount of Singularities will make us immortal, because entropy cannot be reversed. Our demise is inevitable. Which makes life inherently seem tragic. But in truth, we don’t need to live forever. The longer we go, the less each moment seems to count in the sea of moments we have. It is better then, to live moments that matter.

The human condition is just this. We can’t escape it. We can defy it with all our might, but as frail human beings, the universe is an uncaring wall of stone against which we cannot pass. But we can write on the wall, and leave our mark.

Ultimately, life is what we make of it. Whether or not we were created for some purpose or not, we exist with dreams formed by our experiences. Dreams that may never be made real, are nonetheless real within us, true as anything, like an equation written in stone. Or perhaps in sand that blows away.

But for a moment, we are real. But for a moment, the universe is something we experience, even if most of it is unfathomable madness. To live is to embrace something beyond ourselves, and to see the beauty in the madness.

Worlds exist within each soul. Constructs of our imagination. Strands of hope and threads of fear, and every string of attachment and folly. All is weaved into the life we live, a thing that brings us both joy and sorrow, at different moments, different waking breaths.

Is there justice, ultimately? We cannot know this. The gods alone know what is truly right. We can seek and strive to fulfill a destiny, or demand our cause is righteous. But in the end, we know only that we were someone somewhere, seeking goodness, seeking to do what was right, failing and falling, but then, getting up again, dusting off our feet, and standing at the edge of eternity.

Our world isn’t real. Not in the sense that we can know what is outside our senses. But our world is real to us. Our world is an innate truth inside our souls. Nothing can take away the happiness and sadness we experience. They are etched into time, though they may yet be forgotten.

So, what are we to do? Take a deep breath. Imagine the world we want to be. Live a life with a mission worth fighting for. Or accept the world as it is. Or both. We can strive and hope, and still recognize the beauty of a world gone mad.

Let us dream of worlds unseen, and search for paths to the future, aware that our life is but a faint light flickering in a world of shadows.

The world continues to turn. We will be what we are and were.

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